You're hot then you're cold.

Found this note that I apparently wrote on Valentine's Day on my phone. I am proud to say I no longer feel this way; but these are the types of emotions that I think some people might be able to relate to, so I decided to publish it anyway. (Photos are old, too... obviously. Payat ko pa dito. Huhu.)

Do you ever feel like you're putting so much effort into something and not getting anything in return? Do you ever feel like you're putting yourself out there too much? Have you ever liked someone and felt like they liked you back, only to be taken aback moments later because suddenly you're really not that sure anymore? Have you ever liked someone who played you hot and cold at the same time? Because that's how I feel right now.

There are days when I feel like you like me, but then there are days when I feel like you're not sure. It would be nice to have some sort consistency, you know?

I'm not the type of person who likes to play games. I'm pretty straightforward. It's either I like you or I don't, so you should know whether you like me or you don't. And if you don't, don't treat me like I matter to you when you don't really even care.

It's Valentine's Day today and normally, I wouldn't really care. But today, I feel like utter shit just because this guy that I like has been playing me hot and cold. Some days, when we talk, it feels like nothing else matters in the world. But then there are days like today when I dropped all the hints in the world and he still didn't do or say anything to make me feel at least a little better.

When you like someone, you say it. You show it. You let the other person feel it. Life's too short to play games and waste other people's time. I'd really appreciate it if you didn't waste mine.

So today - on Valentine's Day of all days - I'm saying goodbye to whatever it is that I thought we had. If you wake up in the morning and realize that you miss me, it's your turn to do something about it. Because I'm tired trying to figure you out and running after you and trying to make things happen. And if this is all just a game to you, at least man up, admit it and say so. Don't get my hopes up. Please lang.