Surround yourself with the right people.

I ended 2019 on an amazing note. Yes, after everything.

As my dear friends know, 2019 was a real struggle for me. I may have added a ton of new experiences to my life story, but I also experienced a huge amount of breakdowns.

I experienced the second biggest heartbreak of my life this year when my dog died. I opened myself up to dating again after what was probably the worst relationship of my life to date, just to be reminded of how unworthy I am. And my room, like my mind, is still a massive mess.

Still, all that aside, God decided to remind me of the awesome people of my life - the people I should be surrounding myself with this 2020.

I didn't grow up here and I work mostly from home, so I will be forever grateful for meeting this amazing group of people - each of which I had met in the strangest ways possible. :p Although I only see most of them during birthday celebrations due to everyone now having relationships and jobs (some of them were still in college when we met!), our recent spontaneous Christmas party reminded me that I will still always be able to turn to them for advice and a ton of laughter.

Minus one person, I will be forever grateful for the people that I work with. Who knew that meeting my boss at some random event at some random bar would bring me to the best job in the world? I recently got a job offer at a company I had once dubbed 'my dream job', but recent events showed me that I would be utterly stupid to leave all of this behind. We have the most understanding and supportive (not to mention gorgeous) team ever with people who check in and jump in to help when it matters the most. I don't find that often in life, in general. What are the chances that I would find that at work? I definitely wouldn't trade it for any amount of money in the world.

My obsession with beer pong was at an all-time high earlier this year. I even found myself in Hong Kong at one point to play beer pong. Crazy. It became such an obsession that I found myself reeeeeally getting angry whenever I lost. I would also get really anxious on days when I couldn't play, even bringing workmates out just to play water pong after meetings and even training Syrena how to play the game. I also gained a ton of weight during that period of time, so I am proud to say that I have been able to step back a little bit and bring myself back into the world of sanity. :p Still, I met some of the best people in my life thanks to that period. Special shoutout to Tav, as well, where I constantly meet amazing people of all walks of life, some of which I can't even imagine living life without anymore.

And at the risk of sounding utterly cheesy... thank you, Lord, for answering my prayers within a mere 24 hours. I've always been a very religious person, but my last boyfriend couldn't care less about God and going to church. So, during one of my lowest points last month, I asked one of my best friends if I could go to Quiapo Church with him. I won't even sugarcoat it: I BEGGED God for something. Like really, really BEGGED. And exactly 24 hours later, I found myself at peace with all of my questions answered and my heart in a good place.

This 2020, I vow to spend more time with the right people: the people who care, the people who matter, the people who put in as much effort into things as I do. And I vow not to let unworthy people back into my life. Feel free to slap me if I break these vows. :p